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03 June 2008

I Believe I Can Fly (R. Kelly)

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I used to think that I could not go on
And life was nothing but an awful song
But now I know the meaning of true love
I'm leaning on the everlasting arms

If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

[1] - I believe I can fly
I believe I can touch the sky
I think about it every night and day
Spread my wings and fly away
I believe I can soar
I see me running through that open door
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly
I believe I can fly

See I was on the verge of breaking down
Sometimes the silence can seem so loud
There are miracles in life I must achieve
But first it's gotta start inside of me, yeah

If I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

[Repeat 1]

'cause I believe in me, yeah
Oh, if I can see it, then I can do it
If I just believe it, there's nothing to it

[Repeat 1]

I gotta say I can do all things
If I just spread my wings
Spread my wings
Spread my wings
Spread my wings
And I can fly
Ooh fly

                            

29 May 2008

PSALM 121

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Psalm 121

A song of ascents.

1 I lift up my eyes to the hills—
       where does my help come from?

2 My help comes from the LORD,
       the Maker of heaven and earth.

3 He will not let your foot slip—
       he who watches over you will not slumber;

4 indeed, he who watches over Israel
       will neither slumber nor sleep.

5 The LORD watches over you—
       the LORD is your shade at your right hand;

6 the sun will not harm you by day,
       nor the moon by night.

7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—
       he will watch over your life;

8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going
       both now and forevermore.

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On Getting Married Issue No.1

Bride_mirror Last Monday (May 26, 2008) while i was waiting for my appointment with a government staff, i saw my sister's grade one teacher.   So i approached her and introduced myself.  Wow! She still remembers me even after so many years of not seeing each other.

She told me that she is now managing a school for special people (SPED) and often saw my mom whenever my mom would visit our family in Valenzuela.  Then, out of nowhere the big question was asked.  Are you married? And i said" No, mam".  Are you older than my daughter? And i said, "Yes, mam".  The she said, " You know, based on my studies and my students in schools right now... most of the kids were born during their mother's late 30's or early 40's." 

My immediate thinking was.... oh no... no no no! it will not happen to me! My children will be normal, happy and intelligent children!

Then she said again.... "You know when Joy (her daughter) turned 30, i really pushed her to get married and have a child." 

Then the most humiliating thing she can do to me... she said in front of all the people in the office.... "Bukas na bukas din pakasal ka na! Wag mong sayangin ang panahon... mahirap manganak kapag me idad (ouch!) kana! Maghanap ka na ng BF at magpakasal na kayo..."

Haaaaaaayyyyy, what part of "Waiting for the best guy... the one that comes from the Lord" they do not understand? as if naman ganun lang kadali maghanap ng BF much more ng mapapanagasawa no?

Buti na lang, the Lord promised me that the best guy for me is coming.... very very soon... i just have to be patient and hold on to God's promise.

Naghintay na ko ng matagal para sa guy na nilaan ni Lord sa kin... kaya ok pang maghintay na muli... baka kasi pagnagmadali ako... baka madapa ako at mahirapan na kong bumangon....

Happy and contented being a single.... for now.... that's me!   

Fun in the Kitchen

Ifamessykitchenprintc10136746 I had so much fun spending time in the kitchen and spending it with my grandmother and my mom....

Three generations of chefs (?)... usually busy every morning (so pls avoid calling me in the morning between 9-11am coz im sure i won't be able to answer your call hehehe) in the kitchen, sharing tips on how to cook certain food, sharing funny stories on how not to do things because it will either burn your food or your fingers... sometimes we disagree on certain things, like how to cook the chicken, or veggies... but all in all... we finished cooking the foods in good terms hehehe.....

but most of all, i love the time that i spent with them... catching up with each other's stories... on my experiences during the time that i am living either in china or HK... with my chinese and korean students,  my funny and horror stories... with my previous work... with my lovelifes that did not flourished hehehe... so while we are boiling the food, they are also trying to boil my patience with their questions about my lovelife... which by the way until now has the title... "Coming Soon"... (though there is this one guy that i really like...)

I never had this time with them before... i've been busy with so many things and so many issues in my life that i overlooked my relationships with them... so now i am trying to spend more time as much as possible with them....

They will not be here forever......

27 May 2008

Till I See You (Hillsong UnIted)

The greatest love that anyone could ever know
That overcame the cross and grave to find my soul
And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

With all I am I'll live to see Your kingdom come
And in my heart I pray You'd let Your will be done
And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in You

I will live to love You
I will live to bring You praise
I will live a child in awe of You

You are the voice that calls the universe to be
You are the whisper in my heart that speaks to me
And 'til I see You face to face and grace amazing takes me home
I'll trust in you

You alone are God of all
You alone are worthy Lord
And with all I am my soul will bless Your name

14 May 2008

How Great IS Our God (Cris Tomlin)

Cross_4 The splendor of a King, clothed in majesty
Let all the earth rejoice
All the earth rejoice

He wraps himself in Light,

and darkness tries to hide
And trembles at His voice
Trembles at His voice

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, how great is our God

Age to age He stands
And time is in His hands
Beginning and the end
Beginning and the end

The Godhead Three in One
Father Spirit Son
The Lion and the Lamb
The Lion and the Lamb

Name above all names
Worthy of our praise
My heart will sing
How great is our God

How great is our God, sing with me
How great is our God, and all will see
How great, how great is our God


06 May 2008

I miss my blogs....

I've been trying to write another entry on my blog.... but everytime i started to write something... i will find myself deleting it....

hmmmmm.... what's wrong with me????

21 February 2008

Things are not the same anymore...

This is actually the first time that i went back to the Philippines na super duper excited ako... if you are going to ask me, ayoko pa sana umuwi kasi dami ko pa ginagawa dun sa lugar na yun... but God had another plan for me.. He orchestrated everything para makauwi ako.. from my schedules, to my airfare even my heart eh hinanda Nya.

When i saw my mom, i realized na i really have to spend more time with her this time... kasi you can see na tumatanda na sya talaga... and most of the time eh wala ako sa tabi nya so i must make use of my time here sa Pinas to spend time with her...  even my lolo (bingi na at bulag pa) grabe we spent how many hours just chatting and catching up with all the things that im doing.. dun ko lang narealized how he missed me so much... lalo na yung morning talks namin or yung kapag pinagdrive ko sya pag punta kami ng pampanga.. si lola ganun din.. na miss nya yung wentuhan namin after dinner or kapag miryenda time... or my dearest ditse.. na kaso busy din sa opis hehehe kaya bihira ko din makausap.. or alyssa na mula nung dumating ako eh di na humiwalay sa kin.. gusto lahat ng lakad ko eh kasama sya!

Things are not the same anymore... i have or should i say i must appreciate all the people that i've been with kasi after awhile aalis na naman ako, at di ko na makikita yung ibang stages sa buhay nila... tumatanda na sila, nagmamature ako (hahaha bias sa term na ginamit), at lumalaki na mga pamangkin ko... mga kaibigan ko nag-aasawa na, me nanganganak, me namamatay ng maaga.. me nagkakasakit...  yung mga lugar nagbabago.. yung climate nakakalokah na rin...

Things are not the same anymore... but only one thing will remain forever.. at yun ay ang pag-ibig ng Diyos sa ating lahat...

When God Made You

WHEN GOD MADE YOU

(Guys)

Its always been a mystery to me,
How two hearts can come together,
And love can last forever.
But now that I have found you I believe,
That a miracle has come when God sends the perfect one.
So gone are all my questions about why,
And i've never been so sure of anything in my life

~chorus~

Oh I wonder what God was thinking,when he created you.
I wonder if He knew everything I would need,
Because he made all my dreams come true.
When God made you, He must have been thinking about me.

(Girls)

Ooo ooo,I promise that wherever you may go, wherever life may lead you,
With all my heart I'll be there too.
And from this moment on I want you to know,
I'll let nothing come between us, and I will love the ones you love.
(guy):So gone are all my questions about why (girl echoes):about why


Duet:Oh I wonder what God was thinking when he created you,
I wonder if He knew everythin I would need,
Because He made all my dreams come true.
When God made you He must've been thinking about me.

Bridge

He made the sun He made the moon,
To harmonize a perfect tune,
One can't do without the other they just have to be together.
And that is how I know its true,
Your for me and i'm for you and my world
Just cant be right without you in my life

Chorus

(guy) He must have heard every prayer I've been praying (girl echo)
I've been praying (both)He must've knew everything I would need

When God made you, He must've been thinking about me.

05 February 2008

For You

Bestfriendsset_1 "As endless as forever, Our love will stay together You are all I need to be with forevermore" (From the song Forevermore by Side A Band)

Tell me to give you up and i will do

I'm still praying that somehow this dream will come true

But as time passes by and days are gone

Is there still a future that will hold us as one?

17 December 2007

Catch a Falling Star

I do not know but this song never fails to make me smile everytime i hear it... i still love the original version of Perry Como....

~Hopelessly Romantic~

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CATCH A FALLING STAR (by Perry Como)

Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket
Never let it fade away
Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket
Save it for a rainy day

For love may come and tap you on the shoulder some starless night
Just in case you feel you want to hold her
You'll have a pocketful of starlight
Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket
Never let it fade away
Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket
Save it for a rainy day

For love may come and tap you on the shoulder some starless night
And Just in case you feel you want to hold her
You'll have a pocketful of starlight
(Pocketful of starlight, hm,hm,hm,hm,hm,hm)

Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket
Never let it fade away
Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket
Save it for a rainy day
(Save it for a rainy, save it for a rainy, rainy, rainy, day)

For when your troubles start multiplyin' and they just might
It's easy to forget them without tryin'
With just a pocketful of starlight

Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket
Never let it fade away
Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket
Save it for a rainy day
(Save it for a rainy day)
Save it for a rainy day

16 December 2007

Song of Love

One afternoon, i was watching this old Chinese movie (with English Subtitle.. yahoo bihira ata mangyari na me TV show na me English subtitles hehe.. anyways..) and i was really touched by what i heard from the guy. Corny as it sounds but i cried during one particular scene. This guy had a cancer, he knew it for almost 3 years and he didn't tell his wife and children about it until he needs to resign from his work as a famous anchorman. He was scheduled for an operation (that was the time that cancer survival was very slim) so he and his wife were taking a romantic moment at the rooftop of the hospital. Then the husband told his wife that she must not think even for a single moment that he didn't love her... in fact, he loves her very much that he is taking a chance on this operation so he can live longer... and that she was always on his mind... The guy died. **************************************************************************************************************************** YOU WERE ALWAYS ON MY MIND (by Willie Nelson) Maybe I didn't treat you Quite as good as I should have Maybe I didn't love you Quite as often as I could have Little things I should have said and done I just never took the time You were always on my mind You were always on my mind Maybe I didn't hold you All those lonely, lonely times And I guess I never told you I'm so happy that you're mine If I made you feel second best Girl I'm so sorry I was blind You were always on my mind You were always on my mind Tell me, tell me that your sweet love hasn't died Give me, give me one more chance to keep you satisfied, satisfied Little things I should have said and done I just never took the time You were always on my mind You were always on my mind You were always on my mind

12 September 2007

How Can Keep...

How Can I Keep From Singing

(Chris Tomlin)

There is an endless song
Echoes in my soul
I hear the music ring

And though the storms may come
I am holding on
To the rock I cling

How can I keep from singing Your praise
How can I ever say enough
How amazing is Your love
How can I keep from shouting Your name
I know I am loved by the King
And it makes my heart want to sing

I will lift my eyes
In the darkest night
For I know my Savior lives

And I will walk with You
Knowing You'll see me through
And sing the songs You give

I can sing in the troubled times
Sing when I win
I can sing when I lose my step
And fall down again
I can sing 'cause You pick me up
Sing 'cause You're there
I can sing 'cause You hear me, Lord
When I call to You in prayer
I can sing with my last breath
Sing for I know
That I'll sing with the angels
And the saints around the throne

19 August 2007

On Anxiety & Worry

Aug. 15, 2007

"You of little faith, why are you so fearful?"

This sentence hit me like a bomb. Today while i was doing my morning QT, i was filled with anxiety and worry.  It started when we had our general mtg and changes must be made... for us to be used effectively by our Dad here.  These changes require us to have our faith to go higher another level.  Knowing my very limited resources and contacts, i saw myself panicking.

Very much like the disciples in the story huh? When they saw the storm getting stronger and the waves higher, they panicked.  They forgot that they are with JC, they forgot that they are with the Saviour.  They focused on the circumstances, and bacame self-conscious of the situation that their in.

Like me... I forgot that i am here in this place because He asked me to be here.  I forgot that He who promised is faithful.  Instead of focusing on the circumstances and situation that i am in right now, i should have focused on Him and His promises.

I know i have been praying to G to increase my faith...but when things do not go well, or like i want it to be i worried.  Fear and anxiety engulfed me like the waves.

Now, as i yarp to G to increase my faith... i also asked Him to increase my patience and that He would give me a stronger back to endure hardships and always give me joy and peace in my heart that He is always with me and will never leave me.

Ooopssss.... by the way, G reminded me of one thing... i only need a faith as small as a mustard seed to move mountain... hehehe.. isn't He a great G?

13 August 2007

Not just another song...

Just A Prayer Away

Tears that fell like rain
Streamed down from my heart
Colors turned to gray
Emptiness led the way
Until I fell apart

You came to save
To show me that

Chorus:
You're just a prayer away
No matter where I am
I know in my heart
You're never too far
When I'm losing my way
You're just a prayer away
My strength is in my faith
I'm never alone
I'm never afraid
Cause You're just a prayer away

When I close my eyes
Lord, I call Your name
And the dark subsides
Nothing can take the place
Of the peace I find

You came to save me
To show me that

Repeat chorus

Bridge:
Whenever i need to fine You
I just fall on my knees
In You I find the strength that I need
To live , to believe

Repeat chorus

28 July 2007

Great And Mighty (Planetshakers)

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I stand in this place and lift
Up my eyes to see
THe glory of Your face

My God, how wonderful You are
How beautiful Your name
It calms the raging seas

With open arms I run into Your courts
I'll dance before You King of all the eath

You're great, great and mighty
King of glory, God of wonder
You're great, Ancient of Days
Keeper of my heart, lover of my soul

You are great and mighty
You are great and mighty
You are great and mighty
You are great

You are great
You are great

Pick It Up (Planetshakers)

(One of the songs that we sang at the concert... haaaayyy loves ko tong song na ito... at first i thought hard rock sya... but after listening to it... grabe I really enjoyed it together with Jump Around!)~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Intro
B G# F#m E
B G# B/D# E

Verse
B
I was blind but now I see
E
Love has got a hold on me
G#m F#m E
Now I sing cause I am free

Pre-Chorus
G#m Bb B E
So Im laying down my life
G#m Bb B E
And Im taking up my cross

Chorus
B
Im taking up my cross
E
Laying down my life
F#m E
All for the glory of Your name

B
Im living my whole life
E
All for You Jesus
F#m E
Taking up my cross everyday

Verse 2
I was lost
Now Im found
Put my feet on solid ground
Now I sing cause I am free

Bridge
B F#m G# E
I choose to stand for my generation

Jump Around (Planet Shakers)

I love this song!~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Somebody get your praise on

There is one thing that I know for sure
How much I love You yet You love me more
You paid my debt a price I could not pay
So I will praise You each and every day

I'm not gonna hold back now
I think it's time to just get up
And jump around now

Everybody jump around
In the house of God
Hey, hey jump around
Everybdy jump around
In the house of God
EVERYBODY

When I say Jesus
You say praise HIm
Jesus praise Him
Jesus praise Him

There is one thing that I can't ignore
The power of praising You in one accord
Our praise goes up, the walls come down
Listen up people I can hear that sound

Praise Him, jump jump
Come on praise Him, jump jump
Praise Him, jump jump
Somebody get your praise on

Somebody get your
Some-somebody get your praise on

27 May 2007

Reflections

What you are going to read below was part of my term paper for my M training... kasama kasi sa M training namin yung course about yourself and to handle your conflicts within and with other people... it was written 3 yrs ago hehehe... pero kasi naisipan kong ayusin ang aking inbox so nakita ko to.. actually nakalimutan ko na ito eh... but now that i saw it again i want to share it with you... baka sakali na makilala nyo kahit part ng kung sino at ano ko.... then if you want you can also answer this question....

Q:  What does my friend find most difficult about living in relationship with me?


1.  Comment:  They find it difficult that I left the office around 10pm, sleep around 1am or 2am and still wake up at 4am, leave the house around 5:30, dropped my sister in her office in Makati and then go to our office directly in Pasig.  Ang weirdo daw ng aking schedule. Kasi most of the time daw eh nasa labas ako ng bahay pero wala naman daw akong social life.  Wala na daw ako timefor myself, and for my friends kasi puro work daw ang inaatupag ko.  And kasi sila din ang nahihirapan kasi me mga cases na di ko namamalayan na my body wants to rest na pala pero yung mind ko hyper active pa kaya minsan nagcocolapse na lang ako. Usually ang uwi ko sa hospital, almost two weeks din ako dun. 

Pero now, looking back at all those things, I thank God that He pulled me out of that situation and let me just rest in Him.  It was so hard for me to resign sa office kasi loves ko yung work ko eh.  Plus the people that I work with are great people na through thick and thin eh nakasama ko.  And feeling ko nga pagnawala na yung work ko, wala na rin yung identity ko.  But God proved me wrong.  For 3 months now wala na ko work, nung una ang hirap pero kalaunan nasanay na din ako lalo na maghapon ginagawa ko lang eh just talking to God, resting in Him, immersing in His Words, grabe yung revelation and realization about me.  Tapos when you started yung lecture natin sa “Beginning”, naiyak talaga ko when im reflecting upon it.  Kasi ramdam na ramdam ko yung love ni God sa akin.  I was trapped dun sa worldly view of being me, na kelangan successful, na dapat ganito or ganun.  Pero now, I realized na hindi lahat ng ginawa ko naging beneficial para sa akin.  God let me see na kahit ano gawin ko apart from Him eh di ako magiging masaya.  So now, after agonizing months of not working secularly, yung identity ko, yung drive ko for achievement and success eh di na ganun ka grabe kasi now I see myself as one of God’s greatest creation, na dapat ingatan at pahalagahan.  Kaya nung nawalan ako ng work, believe it or not, mas marami ang natuwa kesa sa nalungkot… hahaha ang weird no? pero now, masaya na rin ako kasi  I was able to spend time with my family, with my friends, na ang tagal kong di ginawa.  I isolated myself for 7 years kasi kala ko sa wok ko makikita yung fulfillment ko, hindi pala.  I found myself happier now being with people who loves me despite of… and ngayon ko lang narealized how I missed them so much.  Now I was able to relax more and look at things in proper perspective. And now I can say, I was able to “mourn” for the things that I have lost.  Matagal-tagal din na iyakan ke God pero finally I was able to forgive myself.  That was the hardest part yung forgiving myself  kasi nga feeling ko wala naman ako ginawa na “bad” talaga.  Pero reflecting upon it, dami ko pala nasaktan na tao and nagalit ako sa sarili ko, ang hirap tanggapin pero ni remind ako ni God ng mga ginawa ko, and praise God kasi that time din He restored and he healed me. (resource person: Juvy Medriano, my officemate for 6 yrs. Kasama ko nag pioneer sa company)
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2. Comment: You’re a fine lady dedicated ambitious friendly open minded loving caring all the good adjectives fit you. The only character that i have found difficult about living in relationship with you is that you are so PERSISTENT. PERSISTENT in a way is positive but too much of everything is difficult to handle. Nuisance comes handy when you do that. When somebody say no! ask why once is ok, ask why again the second time is fine and at the end that you accepted the answer and still do what your heart desire because you like it or you think what your doing is right. That’s where DIFFICULTY in an attitude or character came into picture. Hope it will help you and in your research. God Bless. Jay-r
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Reflection: Masyado daw ako persistent sa pagtatanong kahit no na yung sagot to the point na nakakainis na.  Well, actually  matanong talaga ko.  I don’t easily give up sa kakatanong lalo na kapag yung tinatanong ko eh alam kong me alam sa issue na gusto ko malaman.  Na kahit the person said no already, I would still keep asking hanggang dumating sa point na they would give in and tell me the story sa kakatanong ko.  Pero I only do that to the person who are very close to me katulad nitong resource person ko.  Or sa mga taong alam ko na kahit naiinis sa kakapilit ko eh would eventually give in then sa pangungulit ko.  And I only do that kind of probing kapag yung tao nainvolved eh super close sa akin and loves ko talaga, either a relative or a friend. But after having some of our exercises sa school lalo na yung you just listen and don’t react when somebody is telling a story, I learned how important it is to respect other people.  I mean, when they say no, then I would live it at that kasi baka hindi pa sila handa to share it or they were asked a person to have the story in strict confidentiality.  So I learned to keep quiet when I needed to be quiet, and accept when people say no and not to be persistent too much. ( Resource person:  JR Eusebio, a cousin of mine na barkada ko rin.)
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3.  Comment: Cathy... she's one of a wonderful person that God has given   me. The attitudes, character that she has is a great blessing, a heart of patience, dedicated, loving, caring, understanding, appreciative, innovative, encourager, listener, humble, silent, keeper, a good leader, carrier, teacher, and she have heart of service|(manicure, pedicure, kulot? ano pa ba?) hahaha..., but you know what? aside from that she's a clown.... she can easily make me laugh nor sad. Some times she makes me feel uncomfortable in a way of saying jokes, where in she called it "OKRAY" she always says some encouraging words and after that she will say some "okray" words... Every time we talk, i am ready to hear some okray words.. hehehe.. i really dunno why she's asking this question, we just talked while ago and i found out that she's serious sending this e-mail and asking this question... because once you knew CATHY, who cathy really is... whew! you'll need to pray! hehehe.. si cathy, kilala ko na itong taong ito eh. alam ko na kung kailan sya seryoso, galit, masaya, malungkot, takot, balisa, etch... pero kung bago mo lang syang kilala, mahirap sa kanya yung bagay na hindi mo alam kung seryoso ba sya sa sinasabi niya or hindi. Kasi nga madalas syang magpatawa... kaya kahit na seryoso na, hindi mo agad malalaman kung seryoso ba talaga sya or hindi... you need to analyze pa kung seryoso ba talaga siya or hindi... hehehe.. siguro ayun ang masasabi kong mahirap sa kanya... lalo na kung kasama ko yan! hay!!! pero laking pasasalamat ko kay GOD kasi biniyayaan niya ako ng kaibigan na gaya niya. Ngets, dito lang me palagi. Dyan ka na man! hahahaa God bless! Aries
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 Reflection:  Honestly, its really hard for me to get serious sometimes.  Lalo na kapag kausap ko eh mga friends ko na me problem tapos para sa akin simple lang yung problem nila na pinalalaki lang nila sa negative na naiisip nila.  Ayoko kasi ng masyadong malungkot yung atmosphere eh, kasi parang ang bigat sa dibdib.  I mean its ok for me to listen to problems pero me mga times na yung kausap ko eh iyak na ng iyak so I would crack a joke or make an ice breaker para ma lighten up yung situation.  Na minsan ang interpretation nila eh im taking things lightly, na parang wala ako pakialam.  Pero later on, kapag nahimasmasan na sila at naalala yung mga jokes ko, wala naman sila gagawin kundi tumawa ng tumawa. But you know what?  Upon reflecting on this msg, I realized na I need to train myself to really listen to other people and keep silent kapag nagwewento sila.  Kasi I learned na hindi nman lahat ng nagsasabi ng problem sa yo eh wants your advise or comments, yung iba they just wanted someone to listen to them. One thing more, when I give somebody advise I would tell them immediately na seryoso ko sa sinasabi ko kahit pa nakangiti ako for them to know na im not playing games with them and I’m serious helping them with their problems. (Resource person: Aries Bustamante, pinaka close kong friend, he knew everything about me,  sya yung taong nasasabihan ko ng lahat ng nasa isip at kalooban ko…  na minsan mas kilala pa nya ko kesa ako sa sarili ko…. Weird…)
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4. Comment:  ay ano bang klaseng katanungan ito? hirap sagutin! ano nga ba? teka, ahmmmm NOT BEING ABLE TO TELL WHOLEHEARTEDLY WHAT YOU FEEL especially with us guys (d cute guys of tropang pasaway! lolz)...... na minsan (o madalas?) nanghuhula ako (o kami) sa mga iniisip mo o nararamdaman mo.... na kalaunan eh I am (or we are) taking it just the way you are.... na iniisip ko (o namin) na kailangan din na minsan ay may distansya tayo sa isa't isa lalo na sa napaka-personal na mga bagay. yan! pag me naisip pa ako..maya hane!
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Reflection: This is the first answer that I’ve got from my friends,  and I was really shocked nung mabasa ko to.  I       didn’t know na ganun pala yung nararamdaman nila kapag di ako nagsasalita or kapag tumatahimik ako.   As I’ve told you before, its not easy for me to talk about myself personally lalo na sa ibang tao.  I can be as makulit, maingay, magulo, lukaret as I can be, pero I can also be so quiet. Na di ko lam iba pala naiisip nila to the point na concern sila sa nararamdaman at iniisip ko.  The reason na nananahimik sila is the fact siguro na I have a strong personality and somehow natatakot sila tanungin ako or approach kasi iniisp nila baka magalit or maoffend ako, or kasi ako pinakamatanda sa grupo kaya iniisip nila na dyahe naman kung ask nila ko.     Reflecting on it,  nalungkot ako.  Kasi sila yung mga friends ko na I neglected when I got too busy with my on life dahil sa work ko.  Sila yung mga kasama ko before sa mga gimiks lalo na kapag ng mountain climbing, or swimming or mountain trekking.  For how many years I was not able to go with them.  Lam ko nagtampo sila sa akinkaya dumating yung time na di na nilako invite sa mga gimik kasi lam nila di naman ako sumisipot eh.  Pero praise God kasi di Nya hinayaan na ma lost ko pa ulit tong mga taong to who really cared for me.  Thank God kasi He gave me another chance to be with them.  After our class, I made a point to talk to them and catch up with each other’s activities, tapos  sumasama na ulit ako sa mga lakd ng grupo.  And you know what?  I was so happy, relieved and I felt new when I was with them.  Parang ibang Cathy na ulit yung nabuhay.  Dun ko narealized how much I lost when I neglected them.  But God gave me another chance to recover what I have lost, and that is my relationship with this people. Now? I can say that God really turned my mourning into dancing.  Praise God! Thank God! (Resource person: Rommel Aquino, official (kuno) spoke person of  tropang pasaway… my friends since 1998… believe it or not sa internet kami nagkakila kilala, and first eye ball namin eh sa Fatima Hospital kasi naka confine ako dun due to over fatigue… oh di ba bongga… hahaha..)

30 April 2007

TP Reunion

April 28-29, 2007

"Friends we will be now and forever..." yan ung first line ng kanta ni ate shawie... and i want to believe that it will happen to us... no matter how far the distance, or how long it is....

Grabe! after how many years eh now lang ulit nagkita kita ang halos buong tropa (halos kasi yung iba eh di nakasama)... but for the first batch of TP members... it was a dream... a reunion came true... although wala si cris at ate ana na kabilang sa first batch ng TP, naging memorable pa rin ang pagkikita kita ng tropa...

Ate Bheng (from Canada), Manong (from The Netherlands), Geena (from The Netherlands din galing), Helen (from France) at ako (from China), & Don lokal (from diff countries galing).... imagine ilan kaming galing sa iba't ibang lugar eh nagkataon na sabay sabay umuwi! yahooooo kaya riot talaga yung naging reunion...

Gelay was there ov course mawawala ba sya... si Ronald na aming ever patience na driver kon tagasundo hehehe... pero grabe ha.. bilib ako sa kanya... sobrang bait nya sa min nung time na yun... wala ako masabi.. saludo talaga ko sa kabaitan ni Boga... kaso wawa naman kasi nga nagting driveer namin...  si lavern na labas pasok din ng Japan.. pero at this time eh nag aaral ng nursing kaya di muna sya gumagala... si Erwin na aba kagagaling lang din ng Taiwan... lam nyo ba kung bakit?? sige saka ko na iwewento sa inyo hehehe... syempre kung kasama si mama gee eh mawawala ba si papa brye???

mga hindi nakasama.... si sheng na me sariling dahilan kung bakit di nakasama.... si ate ana.. kasi nasa US pa... si cris di ko lam why di nakasama... si Ivan kasi me qualifying exam sa board kaya di talaga makakasama... si ace kasi naka duty at di pede mag absent... si kuya will na nasa PNG pero ok lang kasi umuwi naman sya at nakasama ang tropa nung january eh...

Wala ng hihigit pa kapag nakasama mong muli ang mga taong mahalaga sa buhay mo... mga taong mahal mo at alam mo ring mahal ka... kahit ano at kahit sino ka pa... mga taong tanggap ka.... at yan ang nararamdaman ko tuwing kasama ang tropang ito... walang pretensions... walang pa cute (kasi lahat kami eh cute hehehe)...

hay... kelan naman kaya ulit mauulit to??? malamang sa May 26 kasi usapan na yun eh... na magkikita kita muli kaming lahat kasi despedida ko, ni ate bheng at ni Don... at the same time birthday celebration ni ate bheng...

dyan lang kayo at dito lang ako.. babalitaan ko kayo ng susunod na adventure ng Tropang Pasaway! 

Tagaytay

April 24-25, 2007 (Laguna & Tagaytay Trip)

It was so nice to see my team mates again... i visited them 2 days after i arrived in Manila coz kuya Eph (our leader) will be leaving for HK the following day... after lunch, they brought me to Tagaytay and it wassssss so wonderful... why? kasi di mainit sa Tagaytay eh... sarap ng hangin hehehe... kakaibang kakaiba sa Manila... i also spent time with our other friends... we also had dinner at Tagaytay... and for the first time since i arrived in Manila nakatulog ako ng mahimbing kasi aircon yung room na tinulugan ko eh hahaha...

Then the following day, we had a breakfast fellowship and i really had a great time with them... it feels like we are China again during the time na me training...

haaaayyyyy..... i miss china na... i miss everything about that place... including the "amoys" duing summer hahaha.... can't wait to go back to my second home....

Ano sama na ba kayo sa kin sa China??? ano pa intay nyo??? tara na!

TP in Motion By: Sheng Santos

TP in motion..

Today, As I am writing this, my friends are all busy looking at their pictures taken from their Laguna outing last weekend. Going to the beach or any resort is a summer “escapade” to many, but for them, it is more than that. Last week could have been their greatest reunion. Hmnn, I would not be surprised if I saw this event in the Guiness Book of World Records. It happens only once in this lifetime, it may happen again after 200 years or more.

Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to go to the said reunion. Sigh. I miss them so much.. but I have reasons, well, personal reasons why I didn’t want to go.. First, it is because [message deleted because of confidentiality], second, [blah blah blah..] and lastly, [uhmnn.. buzzzzz]..

Anyway, let me introduce to you my group called the Tropang Pasaway.. You know, as the name implies, we do have all different personalities, not to mention the looks of course, have different religions and beliefs.. and other numerous differences.

Let me introduce them one by one.

RONALD RUBEN (29.single) aka Boga (Boy Ganid), Balbakwa (I don’t think it is righteous to explain why). He is the most popular among the members. He looks like 15 years older than his real age but he is the most childish in his own way. The first time I met him he was wearing this printed retro polo, a boxer shorts, socks and something like a leather golf shoes but what impressed me most is his self-confidence. He strongly believes that he has better looks than Piolo, has a perfectly fit body that Luis Manzano envies of, and most (or worst) of all, he knows that he is much qualified to be a Hollywood leading man. At age 29 (according to him), he is still single and I still cannot figure out why??!!!

CATHERINE EUSEBIO (35.single) aka Ate Cathy, Cat-Cat. She is our original Ate, our spiritual counselor. She would put her life at risk just to serve the Lord and that is what she wants as her career. She had been through a lot of sacrifices in terms of giving up her office work, had left her family, had gone to China where her services are most needed, and of course the decisions she had made in breaking up with her countless boy-friends and lastly, had rejected one marriage offer. She was once obsessed with one of our friends here. Clue? He is blessed with more flesh and bones below his lips.

ROMMEL AQUINO (35.single) aka Manong. If Vic Sotto, Joey De Leon and the single mom in a cab have their tito, we have our manong naman.  Wala kayo sa Manong namin. He is the boss in his office, but if he is with us, he is just one of the alipins, even if we use his own house in Subic.  A certified thunder. His motto? Early to bed, early to rise, makes an old man healthy, wealthy and wise.

ANGELINE SUNGA-BURCE (29.married) aka Gelay, Gagay, Geline, Abs. The only wife of Don Don (for now. Just kiddin’) and the only mom among the group (again, for now). She is the speaker in the house, yes in the house. She doesn’t know how to talk softly. One would always thought “may kaaway na naman si gelay”. Yes, she screams when talking but for us, it’s normal. She is one of the original mayordomas. I have learned from her that one can lay down on a stretchmark and that the Times Square is the one along UN Avenue, Manila.

WILFREDO BURCE (31.married) aka Don Don. He is the only husband (for the lifetime) of Gelay. He is known as Mr. Perfect. Hmnn..

HELENA VISAYA (31.single & still a virgin). A Lovers in Paris fanatic and the only manang among us. No one can talk about sex if she is around. She is blessed with the three B’s -- Beauty, Body and Brains. A serious type. Ayokong olayin.

ANALYN SALINAS-MITCHEL (35.married) I haven’t met her yet but according to chismis, she is the silent and serious type, seldom laughs, and hates gimmick.. How true?!

IVAN CAYANAN (23.single). The youngest, but not a brat baby. The number one super dooper taga-contra of Boga. Eh kasi Ivan possesses the good physical qualities that Boga doesn’t really have. A joker. A joker. A joker.

WILGREG APILADO (3*.single). Also an oldie but still a goodie. Pinaka-pasaway na kuya. He loves adventures (and no wonder why he loved that crazy ugly poison este woman..) and loves to travel even if alone (ayaw kasi kami gastusan).

EDAHLIA AMANDY-MCNEAL (35.married). A certified hot mama but a cool ate. She is a woman of few words but of full sense.

GEENA HERRADURA. (35 to be married). By nature, she is a jet setter. By nature, she is.. a jet setter! All I know is that she loves travelling to different places and is devoted in tree planting, segregating waste materials, etc.. basta she is into taking care of the environment.. kaya nga if there is an award on being a pasaway, she could have the grand prize.. Sya lang kasi ang matino.

ERWIN MANALANSAN (30.single again). The most kuleeettt.. He has experienced everything. A four-women man but not for this reason why he was put in jail. He would do everything just to be present in gatherings except for those unplanned dinners in Manila.

Now young ladies and old maids, if you are interested in any of the above mentioned guys, kindly pm or text me.. I will sell them at an affordable price.

26 April 2007

Hot Hot Hot!

Whew! di ko lam ganito na pala kainit sa Pinas... when i arrived sa airport ng 1am eh dama ko na agad yung init.. imagine tulo talaga ang pawis sa likod ko...  at sa tindi ng init, lagi nag aalburoto ang tyan ko.. plus lagi pa masakit ulo ko... pray ko lang na sana naman eh medyo lumamig ng konti...

anyways, its so nice to back.. me mga times when i was in China na parang ayoko na umuwi... kasi di ko na lam kung ano gagawin ko dito... kasi parang nasa China na buhay ko... but its so nice to see my family again surrounded by my makukulit na pamangkins... and syempre to meet with my friends... pero sorry po kung yung iba hindi ko na mami meet ha... hope you understand.. bago pa kasi ko umuwi sa pinas eh me mga naka sched na kong lakad...

but i would love to meet all of you while im in Manila... sana magkaroon ng time both on our parts para magkita kita tayo....

me isang bagay lang akong me medyo kinatatakutan at medyo nag iisip kung i meet ko tong tao coz it will be my ultimate decision kapag ginawa ko yun..

it will either break me (more)... or heal me....

well, i'll cross the bridge when i get there... i just pray that i will be doing the right decision... kasi kung hindi... i will not be able to see him for a long time... my choice....

27 March 2007

Kuaide

Whew! I can't remember when was the last time a rode a bicycle... Since i started working and got my own company car, i was not able to ride one, either at home or at the park.  And when i resigned from work, i was not able to do it either! hehehe

But as the saying goes " When you are in Rome do as the Romans do", and since i'm in China what's the best way to do as the chinese do? Ride a bicycle!

When i first arrived here i was really amazed about the number of people using the bicycle as their means of transportation. Girls wearing high heels with matching mini-skirt are my favorites (I wonder how can they do it and still look gorgeous?), another are the men in business suit (as in with matching jacket! hehehe).  Kids going to school, older people doing it for exercise...

Now i'm also doing it! First for health purposes, second to skip boredom and meet new friends who also love to use the bicycle (great way to meet new contacts too!).   And last but not the least, for FUN!

I never had so much fun riding a bicycle until now.  The breeze of the air on my face (it's spring time! so weather is much better.) The feeling of freedom (you can go anywhere you want to go), and the feeling of adrenalin rushing to my veins hehehe... this is the most risky part that i have done since arriving in this place.

Next goal? To join a local cross-country bicycle group... hehehe...

Oh by the way, my bike's name is.... kuaide! (pronounced as kwayda... meaning... fast)

21 March 2007

Paano Maibabalik ang Nakaraan

aDi ko na lam kung paano sisimulan ang ating kwentuhan

Sa pagdidikit ba ng mga nabasag na nakaraan

O sa pagtatagni-tagni ng napunit na samahan

O baka naman mabuting kalimutan na lamang?

Kung aking babalikan ang ating nakaraan

Kay saya saya nito tila walang katapusan

Laging magkasama saan mang lakaran

Di mapaghiwalay ng kahit ninuman.

Dumating ang panahon tayo'y nagtampuhan

Hindi nag-usap ng kung ilang buwan

Sama ng loob kinimkim hindi pinag usapan

Humantong sa isang matinding kumprontahan.

Ngayon tayo'y ok na naman

Pero bakit ganun hindi ko malaman

Parang may kulang na sa ating pagkakaibigan

Bakit parang kay hirap ibalik ng nakaraan?

Paano maibabalik ang dating samahan?

Kailangan bang ito'y muling pag usapan?

Parang kay layo mo na at di na maabutan?

Paano ko maibabalik ang ating nakaraan?

19 March 2007

Love Story ng Puso Ko

Oh Diyos nais kong umawit at sumayaw para sa Iyo

Di ko kayang itago pag-ibig kong ito

Puso ko'y iaalay para lamang sa Iyo

Kaya'y huwag mong hahayaang mawalay sa Iyo.

Puso kong lito, ito'y inayos Mo

Buhoy kong gusot, ito'y tinuwid Mo

Lakas ng loob at pagtitiwala'y muling binalik Mo

Kaya't anong dahilan ko upang lumayo sa Iyo.

Aking ninanais Ika'y mapangiti

Isang smile Mo lamang puso ko'y kinikilig

Parang si Florante at Laura sa tindi ng pag-ibig

Kaya't ang lovestory ko sa 'Yo lamang isa submit.

Buong Puso

Panginoon nais kong humimlay sa Iyung mga bisig

Aking maramdaman ang init ng Iyung pag-ibig

Ako'y iyung ihele sa lambing ng Iyung tinig

Upang aking maranasan buhay na kaibig-ibig.

Pagod na puso ko'y Iyung kalingain

Pag-ibig ko sa Iyo'y laging pag apuyin

Mga agam-agam sa isip ko'y palayain

Upang Ikaw oh Diyos ay laging pupurihin.

Patuloy Mo akong bigyan ng kalakasan

Nais ng puso ko'y maging tapat ng tuluyan

Ikaw ay makapiling at mapaglingkuran

Noon, ngayon, bukas at magpakailanman.

 

18 March 2007

Para Sa Iyo!

221 "Parang kaylan lang, ang mga pangarap ko'y kay hirap abutin, dahil sa inyo napunta ako sa aking nais marating... Tatanda at lilipas din ako ngunit mayrong awiting iiwanan sa inyong ala-ala, dahil minsan tayo'y nagkasama..." (Florante)

Grabe, ang bilis lumipas ng mga panahon.  Thiry-four years had passed and now i'm enjoying the beginning of my thirty-fifth... yeap! yeap! yeap! thrity-five na po ako and im proud of it, hehehe.

I wouldn't have done it without you my dear friends, i wouldn't be able to survive this cruel, crazy, unfair, adventurous and lovely world without you at my side, walking with me... behind, encouraging me... in front , fighting with me...

Thank you for lending me your shoulders to cry on... your ears to listen to my emotional out bursts (mapaadventure man or mapadrama), your hands and arms to comfort me... your smile to encourage me... and your life to live with me.

I was able to achieve my dreams, my goals and my destiny because of your help and encouragement, giving rebuke and corrections if necessary... and for letting me see not the world that i live in but for the things that i can contribute to this world...

I am looking forward for more adventures coming our ways, more obstacles and problems to endure, more places to visit to, and more love and dreams to share.

Kaibigan, para sa iyo ang blogspot na ito! Mabuhay ka at pagpalain ka ng Panginoon!

Sa Diyos lamang ang papuri!

12 March 2007

To BF Bong

hi dearie... that's what you always calls me when ever we talk on the phone, or even when you are writing your emails... you call me kamote naman kapag me mga bagay akong ginawa or sinabi na di mo nagustuhan, or kapag inaasar kita... 

tomorrow is the second year that i will celebrate my birthday without you... it's hard BF Bong, not only for me but to all the people who loved you... now i understand nanay and the suffering that she feels... until now, di ko sya makausap ng hindi umiiyak kaya nga i stopped calling her... parang tumigil na din ang mundo nya...

but for me... for us... life must go on... minsan naiinggit ako sa yo kasi at least ikaw kasama ka na ni Tatay, ako... kami patuloy na lumalaban sa hamon ng mundo...

pero ok lang.. ganun talag eh... sabi nga una-una lang yan.. di pa tapos ang gawaing nakatalaga sa kin dito kaya kelangan kong harapin ito...

Miss na kita BF Bong... miss  ko na yung walang sawang hagalpakan natin... no holds barred na confession at pagsasabi ng mga saloobin.. miss ko narin na tinutukso mo ko sa man of my dreams ko kahit lam ko na ayaw mo sa kanya hahaha... miss ko na yung natutulog tayo sa pang isahan na kama mo, kumakain sa isang plato, nag aagawan sa kapirasong talong na sahog ng paksiw na isda, yung susunduin kita ng sasakyan ko kahit na ilang beses na tayong nagbyahe na nawalan ako ng preno...

Di bale, alam ko sa tamang panahon magkikita pa rin tayo... hintayin mo ko ha...

14 February 2007

Being Single And Patient

may this encourage and bless all the singles out there... God is preparing you for the best.


Devotional: BEING SINGLE AND PATIENT


"Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked
schemes." Psalm 37:7

Being single and patient. I realize that many of my Devotionals deal with husbands and wives, parents and children. I also realize that many of you are not married at the present time. In our society, you are almost looked down on if you are not married or involved in a relationship with.

Many people feel like something is wrong with them if they are single. Being single is OK. Whether you are single because of a divorce, your spouse has died, or you have never married, IT IS OK. The point I want to share with you today is to be patient. I can assure you, 99% of the relationship problems I deal with each
and every day can be traced back to people who were impatient. Good people who jumped into relationships outside of God's timing and ended up paying a big price. I realize that loneliness will cause you to make poor decisions, but you have got to understand the
consequences of those decisions. The number one problem in relationships is that there is no spiritual base. While money, communication, and other issues are the most popular reasons for
problems, I assure you the lack of a spiritual base in the relationship is the reason these other problems exist. Not having a secure spiritual base is why God said to not be unequally yoked. He knew without that base, the relationship could never survive. The base starts with the personal walk each person has with the Lord. It is then solidified by both people bringing there faith together as one. The Bible talks of the man being the spiritual head of his home. It is important for a man to take this job seriously, and be the priest in his home. It is his responsibility to help merge his faith and that of his potential wife. Praying together.Reading the Word together. Serving the Lord together. These are all ways for two people to
lay a solid and secure spiritual base.

Let me tell you this. WITHOUT A SPIRITUAL BASE, NO RELATIONSHIP WILL LAST OR HAVE ANY LONG-TERM SIGNIFICANCE. While I realize finding someone physically attractive, someone with a nice personality, someone with a good job may all be criteria in finding a
mate, if you do not focus first on the spiritual side of the relationship, it is doomed. I want to tell you now, without  hesitation. The reason for the high divorce rate amongst the people of God is because there is NO spiritual base in the relationship. This is why patience is critical.

While the downside to being single is loneliness, the upside is it allows you to grow and develop a real walk with Christ. It also gives you the power over what relationships you will enter into. There is a power in the fact you have choices you can make. Be picky. Be
patient. You do not have to find someone today. This is where your faith and trust in God becomes important as well. He knows your needs and desires. Trust Him. Have faith in Him that He is going to bring the right person into your life.

I love you and care about you. It hurts me to know many of you are hurting from the loneliness of being single. I pray that today you will refocus on your walk with the Lord. I pray you will realize there is nothing wrong with being single. I pray you will know that God understands your needs and desires, and He will bring the right person into your life.

I will add, that like everything, it is a combination of God's sovereign will, and our responsibility. You can not expect to sit in the house, and wait for the Lord to send the right person knocking at your door. Like all battles, you need a game plan, and you need to be faithfully executing the plan each day to see victory. My emphasis today though is that as you are out looking for a mate, remember that unless your relationship has a spiritual base to it, it will not last. Being single is OK. Use the time to solidify your walk with Christ. Be patient. Never forget that the Lord loves you, and will bring the right person into your life. Trust Him and wait on His timing.

"If my life is motivated by an ambition to leave a legacy, what I would probably leave is a legacy of ambition. But, if my life is motivated by the power of God's spirit in me and the awareness of the indwelling Christ, if I allow His presence to guide my motives, that's the only time I think we really leave a great legacy." -- Rich Mullins 1955-1997



" HOW CAN A YOUNG MAN KEEP HIS WAY
PURE? BY LIVING ACCORDING TO YOUR WORD."



-Psalm 119:9

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This article was sent to me by a friend... i do not know who the author is/was.... but it is very nice to share it with friends like you...